Very excited today , can't wait to be in service later .
Woke up today with this song at zack's place .
Very Meaningful . Heres the song.
The Way I Do
Your kiss, your smile, your mind You're sunlight in my eyes I miss your breath on my neck When we whisper in the night
Didn't wanna want you Didn't wanna need you so bad Didn't wanna wake up And find that I was falling so fast Didn't wanna need you Didn't wanna need anyone Now look what you've done
Now I can't go on without you I'm naked, I cant fake it. I'm not that strong without you Never thought I could love you the way I do.
Your touch, your skin, can't believe the way you let me in Don't rush tonight, I need you like the ocean needs the tide.
Didn't wanna want you Didn't wanna need you so bad Didn't wanna wake up And find that I was falling so fast Didn't wanna need you Didn't wanna need anyone Now look what you've done
Now I can't go on without you I'm naked, I cant fake it. I'm not that strong without you Never thought I could love you the way I do.
I always thought I would stand on my own Climb a mountain top all alone Relying, depending on no one Now look at what you've done
Now I can't go on without you I'm naked, I cant fake it. I'm not that strong without you Never thought I could love you the way I do.
Never thought I could love you Never thought I could need you Never thought I could want you The way I do
Never thought I could love you Never thought I could need you Never thought I could want you The way I do
Went to Arielle's place and Mr Law's place today. Had a awesome time. Caught up with my ex-classmates(5NA), been long still I last saw them. Ate at downtown east after that. =) Landed at Zack's house now. Still thinking of last night's dream ! Long day tmr, so have to get rest. Really hoping hard to see you !
Woke up a few hours ago with a dream . I dreamt of something that is so real that I didn't even want to get out of bed . If it happened in reality, it will really be a fairy tale come true. Was the dream a sign ? Hmm. I still remembered very clearly what happened . AWWW , I didn't want to wake up from that dream . It was just simply amazing. whY whY !!
Had a great time doing visitation for Chinese new year.
Just that this year much MUCH lesser people visited = lesser angbaos.
I just feel that my life just needs more excitement.
EAT STUDY SLEEP .
I just recently felt a change in me. I don't know whether because of what happened in the past . Someone who used to be Over-esteem , is becoming a guy who could barely touch the low-esteem bar. Everything seem to be dying over time. Happiness can be found through friends too, not just in relationship. Just having mixed emotions all the time. QTIUWYIOHXCBXKLAMKNHH !!
Went to several places yesterday . There was this awesome shop near Outram park that sells vintage apparel like Fred Perry , Ben sherman , Lacoste and more . If anyone of you guys are yet to buy your cny clothes , this is the one place to be .
This is their blog link . If you don't know how to get there, feel free to contact me . =)
Bought a Ben sherman polo t-shirt from that place . I told Ben (my Friend) to choose what he wants , because I owe him a birthday present , since 20/12/09 . Can you believe how long time ago was that . =) Ended up spending $90 .
After that headed to town with Leon & Ben, Bought another red Fred Perry and a Praise Shirt .
Spend like 4-5 hours shopping . Leon & Ben also bought their stuffs aldry . So we settle down at cine's pastamania for dinner . Calculated that I spend like $200 over yesterday . Going to be so broke . Don't even know if this chinese new year , can cover up whatever I spend to buy the cny clothes.
Passing won't be a problem but getting good grades won't be possible .
Was walking pass a stationery shop today , saw many cards displayed .
It just reminded me of someone.
Anyway , did lots of mugging today .
Studied at Tampines interchange Mac with Leon & Ariella .
Was peaceful at first , UNTIL three ladies came sitting beside us .
They were like chatting about Cellgroup stuff and it wasn't positive comments . It was all hell of negative comments . They were planning to backslide , and saying things like "This person , that person" won't last long . Things like the cellgroup leader earns crap , wears like one too . Talking about all the little mistakes . Everything just keep coming out . It was so loud than even when I turned my earphones to the loudest volume, I could still hear them . I was just this { } close to , scolding them back .
"When you judge others, don't you think that God won't judge you too?"
"Everyone in the world is not perfect, do you think you are?"
These questions were in my head .
They were LADIES ! , not girls .
Forget about that .
Your mood creates your day . I realised that if I keep smiling, everything is going fine.
A SMILE A DAY , KEEP YOUR TROUBLES AWAY !
Don't pressure yourself alright . I know I can't help much but I will be supporting you from deep within my heart !
Do I feel cheated , sad , disappointed , hatred ? I did feel that way .
In fact Humans have feelings too . Some how, I don't feel that way any more .
This is life . When you are walking in front ,
All your friends , loved ones are supporting you .
Then you start walking with confidence , and with high expectations ahead of you .
But after some period of time , you turn back and look , you find no one .
What do you see ? . You see a stab at your back . Instead of walking or running ,
you have to crawl your way through the mountains ahead .
Do you have the courage to get back up & continue walking ? ,
Without the love of anyone else . Without the concerns of people .
I learned that Maturity comes with the acceptance of responsibility .
How do you want to lead your life ?
Living with disappointments or Living with Happiness . You choose .
I thought of many things today . Sorting out my thoughts were one of them.
I couldn't bring myself to listening any of the Chinese songs in my phone .
They were too emotional and only reminded me of you . Heres one .
愛的故事有很多 你一定聽過 love stories are plenty I'm sure you've heard many 她們說 最美的愛情像湖泊 They say~the most beautiful love story is like the lake 美的忍不住停留 而任性的風 The beauty kept me captivated the wind makes me crazy 吹過了 卻飄下一片片葉落 blowing over leaves falling all over
放開手 往北方走 留下傷心的樹獨自忍受 I'll let you go go on leave me behind by the crying tree 妳離開我連一句話都不說 You left me without a single word 只默默看著今晚天空星光閃爍 Silently I watch the stars twinkling
看今夜的流星 劃過了天際 笑我的心 Meteors shooting across the galaxy laughing at me 我無法再冷靜 請妳要傾聽 妳是我的唯一 I can't keep my sanity please hear me you are my one and only 我不願去相信 我們之間 隔著海洋的距離 I don't wanna believe the ocean between us 我的愛 已融化在空氣裡 My love melted in the air
Tears were running wild . This song totally connected with how I felt .
Going through all of this by myself was a challenge . No one to to turn too , by myself .
Memories just can't stop haunting me down . Courage was the only key to my future .